Quarantine and the pandemic is something I never want to remember, yet has been a blessing in disguise. I wouldn’t call myself depressed, but rather, consider myself very sad last year. At home I was alone, my parents both worked their typical 10-6, my sister was up at school, and my dogs mopped around in our lifeless home. School was even worse- some of my friends were hurting my feelings, people started rumors, and I clearly lacked respect from some of my peers.
Being in a pandemic taught me to only keep a tight circle for not only safety, but to remain around the people who I trust and happy around. After all that has been said and done, being the bigger person is just leaving people alone. Looking back, it was extremely exhausting trying to get people to like me or convince them to stick around when I have always been myself. I’ve just learned to drop things, why make everyone like me when I don’t like everyone back.
Although I am a grudge holder, I’ve worked on being forgiving. I don’t want to end this year hating anyone even if they hate me. If I just remember the good times that I have made with some of my peers, most of the time it fades away most of the bad times. I am striving to stick out these times with some people and if it means forgiving then so be it. Learning the difference between how to ignore and give space or be fake and be nice has made my interactions more enjoyable. It has been something that I lacked skill of but now something I plan on taking with me in the future.
Although I am sad about what the pandemic has ruined, I am happy with its way of giving me the alone time to become more mature and the tight circle it has given to me. I believe that having a small circle you trust is crucial, while maintaining good terms with people you had bad times with.
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